wOrd Of GoD sPeAk...

In our life journey we meet obstacles, hindrances, situations or problems - things that may pull us away from God. These things may sometimes pull us away from Him, sometimes making us feel ashamed of ourselves, that we are not worthy of His Love. These things may also put us delibrately away from Him, from Him speaking to our lives, from Him to do a work in our lives. There are so many things that the devil wants to put us down by conquering of the one aspect of our lives that we always think we either have it in control or we had totally lost it. i am speaking from my own experience that i too thought that i had one of the aspects under control. But who was i to kid? When the test and trials come knocking upon my door, i failed it miserably. i have struggled through for at a year or so. but now, from now on... i don want to look back anymore. Yes. even though God's always there to forgive when we sin, but it aint free grace that had been presented to un-repentful people. It is given FREE to those who truely believe that he will one day give you the freedom and liberty that you as a christian should have. one year and counting is a very long time. Yes i was struggling and i know i am struggling. but you know what? i know God has forgiven me not because i know he forgives. Yes that i know, but its a more bigger picture that we must see - that we ourselves must acknowledge our weaknesses and allow Him to come to our lives to change us and that we are willing to change, not just be a temporal change, but a permanent one. Like what i admitted earlier, yes i do sin and i do fall, but i want to change because Grace, Mercy and forgiveness is given freely. May this entry produce more encouraging post in the future.... =) Keep on burning....

These few days i have been telling other ppl i m fine. really. Nothing to worry about, looking forward to watever that throws at me. but somehow, deep down inside of me, waves of nostalgic feelings juz came crushing in. Maybe, juz maybe i haven accepted the reality of life and how fast it has hit me. Throughout this time, i was thinking life cldnt have have been more exciting than this, u finished ur pri sch, u go sec sch, finished tt and u get on to JC/Poly/ITE...... afterwhich army/U/work beckons u depending on which gender and which route u wanna take. i guess that's where we missed out the transaction pints in our lives. the part that we need to overcome, the part that we need to adapt. that is the most exciting part of our lives, if not my life. I juz keep finding myself remaniscing about the past and the history. since i was sms-ing one of my best friend Arnold juz now. Put it in his words.. have alot of feelings, some are happy, some are sad. Hey, i immediately recognised what he was trying to say. somehow adapting into a new environment meant that we had to leave our comfort zone and start to face new ones. Not many of us like it tt way, but tts juz how life goes and indeed, many a times, we like to take our comfort zone and bring it over to the new environment, hoping that it will mix well.. truth is, it doesnt. Much as i would like to stay the things that they are, i juz haf to move on. I will definately bring my memories over to the new environment no matter happy or sad. So many wonderful times while studying, the wonderful times i share wif few in pri, some of my classmates in sec sch, some of whom has left Singapore for further studies, some went army... others haf started to work. others r coming out of army. The wonderful times i share wif my parents, even though most of the wonderful times were how we bicker =p but then as a fmaily or as a child of theirs i m pretty blessed. The times i share wif my church frns... how i get to noe them, sadly how 1 by 1 some left church and some left for gd. how i find new frns, how i find very good frns over there.. i rememebr all the youth camps and the churhc camps.. hahah offcially i only attended 1 each.. =p.. the wonderful times i share wif my colleagues, some who eventually bcame gd frns (and start to throw craps all over me!!! u noe who u r.. stop grinning...) and some others who left Singapore for studies in overseas. frns who learn _. 2gether...hahaha.. if u don understand all these.. its ok, coz only certain ppl noes tt. remember the times i share wif my S6 buddies... all the soccer, the dancing on the tables at ECP, the dirty dancing, the celebrations, the 'supposedly' and infamous threesome and a cat in the tent... hahaha. u read it first on this blog.. all our bickering.. all the quarels.. al the goals, all the action... all the advices we got fr Cai's dad... i only can say this, indescribable. i can write it day and nite teling ppl about all these things that has happen and only i will derive the pleasure from it coz its my memory. Lastly, memories that i share wif that special someone. Thank her from the bottom of my heart tt we haf gone thru this times thick and thin. not considered long tt the times we r 2gther. nonetheless, whereever i go, i will still keep tt part of tt memory in me. =)

i wish i could turn back the hands of time. This sentence followed me for the past few years le. These few days, nostalgic feelings has been sweeping like waves of tsunamies. u cant exactly stopped them from entering ur mind, nor can u ever control. i realised that there are things that i ought to have done, things that i ought not to touch it.... as times goes by, wisdom, a supposedly clever thing inside my brain starts to expand, so does the space for stupidty...if only i haf the wonder clock..

I have no idea why, but i came back into bloggin again. The nostalgic feeling is back. For the mood? went blog viewing for most of the seasons. i end up reading stories after stories after stories, thinking, why cant it be me? Partly the reason i came in was bcoz i wanted to delete all the past entries and start afresh wif a new ones. Partly was bcoz i wanted to blog down (if there ever was this term) how i felt today. Chris, the Bassist left today, leaving a legacy or something like that. yes i m not close to Chris. but to see families swarming ard to send u off.. hm.. heartwarming, heart wrenching when they were crying. Yes, we all say the same thing, like he's gona be back soon. And i m sure he wil be back soon. Truth is no matter what, there will be this void that no one else would be able to fill. Granted people walk in and walk out of ur lives... but when i see Chris hugging Celine and afterwards hugging Clement, mind u, even though they din cry at the moment, u could feel the sense of loss in all three of thier hearts... But that's life.. got to move on ya. be strong. He will be back. time really flies. i guess in watever circumstances, we ought to appreciate people ard us. tell them how much we love them. not trying to make u feel guilty, if not i wun be blogging, i would b asking for forgiveness now. Came across this blog which belongs to a frn of mine. read her entries and felt that ya, came to a certain point we should start thinking and start to embrace the people ard us. accepting them, appreciating them, thanking them, loving them. If there' s a possibility tt the past could oways be on our minds, it is called memories... leave gd memories...